Hi,

I don't normally put a lot of weight into the meaning of my dreams, but the last two nights in a row I've had very specific and unnerving dreams that feel worthy of exploring. Both nights I've dreamt of giving birth to a tiny, weak, sickly baby. In the dreams, I am a careless mother - often forgetting about it, holding it incorrectly, leaving it places by accident, etc. But in the moments that I do remember to care about the baby, I am overcome with guilt, try to overcompensate, and even accidentally injure the baby in my zeal to take care of it. I have had these dreams before, I think, but I can't remember details.

I do not have children and do not desire to have one. I have a genetic bleeding disorder which makes pregnancy risky for me and my husband is not interested in children either. I was abandoned by my mother as a child which I feel is likely relevant. I'm having one of those moments where the interpretation seems to be on the tip of my tongue, but I can't quite grasp it.

Any thoughts?

Edit: I'm open to the possibility that the meaning of this dream has nothing to do with babies at all. Any idea what other stuff a baby might represent in this context?