I am so sorry for what you've been through. How dare those doctors judge you!!!! I've experienced the judgement too, it's like they think you are dirty or deserving....it's as if they are looking at you thinking "what did you do to deserve this". I'm so very sorry. You are not to blame. You ARE strong and TOUGH. Good luck on your surgery and I'm so very sorry you've been dealing with their judgements on top of that trauma. I hope you find a way to heal, and find supportive people and doctors to help you through all this.