I suppose I have learned something in psychotherapy. Before I entered therapy in 1980, I thought that I had potential. I thought that I was only slightly mentally ill, and could make something of myself. Now, after, many years in psychotherapy, I realize that I am profoundly disabled, a shattered mind, a splintered personality, a non-entity. Now the question remains: how do I apply this wisdom to my life? Another question: why bother?