Gerber, you describe so many positive things about your T. Give yourself time. Trust is a very difficult thing to establish. It took me such a long time to feel a connection with my T-- and to this day it still comes and goes. I think that in your therapy, you are still in the "building the relationship" phase-- this can be a really long phase and can last years for some. The important thing to note, however, is that work is getting done. You cannot trust and connect with someone iif you haven't even built a relationship.... and I believe that is what you are working on now.