I love nature too, and I cannot just snap out of a depressive state. There are things we can do that makes the stress less, I suppose. But it's not a sensitive thing to tell someone with anxiety. Also, I do enjoy going for walks, but instead of feeling refreshed, I sort of feel lonely again. It's the same with my acting stuff. For a brief hour, you are talking to people and it feels good. But after I go home, it's like nothing has changed.

I'd love to have a girlfriend. All the sex and that I've had in my life hasn't even been meaningful. I'd hate to be remembered as the guy who let gold diggers and escorts fleece me for my cash. But sometimes I think it's because I'm not attractive enough.