I'm not doing well. I'm sorry if my tone is difficult, I'm deeply sorry if my mood is effecting others on here...I'm so hurt and angry and confused and......I have this need inside me that is too big, and I don't know what I need and I don't feel anyone could fill the need for me....it's a deep all encompassing feeling and my emotions are all over the place. My husband thinks it's the situation with my son and my period....I don't know what it is but my head is full of snot, I can't stop crying for days and even though I'm sleeping alright I'm so tired and cloudy there are no words for it. I'm so deeply angry, hurt, rejected, dismissed, Lonely, aching, throbbing. I want to drink so bad...I went out to get a beer but decided to go to the park in my pajamas instead. I talked to the ducks and birds and they listened to me cry and it was so overwhelming....so much tension all around me and inside me....I feel I might snap any moment but there is nobody to call or help me. It feels like the nightmares I have where I screaming for help but can't make a sound and nobody hears me or chooses to ignore my struggles.