Thanks for the replies everyone. When I first started therapy, my T and I agreed on emailing between sessions since I was having a hard time talking about a few things. Emailing has definitely helped a lot since I can write things I can't actually say in session. Sometimes though I feel like I'm being annoying and sound stupid (which I feel in this last email incident) so what happens is that I call/email cancelling like 3 sessions in a row due to anxiety. I feel anxious a lot and plan on doing that. Last time I did my T called me to see what was going on. I don't even know if I'm a client that can be helped at this point. (Which I mentioned to T but she disagrees and says I can get over what I'm feeling).