Dear Hope,

I am very sorry that you feel judged. I truly don't think it was anyone's intentions to hurt you. I have been following your threads for awhile. This is just my opinion, I think the other posters, including myself, are all very worried about you. You mentioned that your previous T may put a restraining order against you. You talk about suicidality. These are all very scary! It can have serious legal, medical, and emotional complications for you. I don't think anyone wants you to be hurt and further hurting. I'm not defending your previous T at all, but you did mention you are repeatedly crossing his boundaries, when he has explicitly stated for no contact. If this continues, it can have serious ramifications, like a restraining order. It's very hard to know what type of support one should give in this situation...

This is just a suggestion: but if you want to take action. Would you consider contacting his licensing board (like the American Psychiatric Association or NASW, etc) about his treatment/behavior towards you, or if you feel it was a wrongful/harmful termination? You could also talk to a lawyer and learn what your rights are in this type of situation? It might help make you feel more empowered.

Please take care, and try to do something nice for yourself.