on a day by day I have told myself no I have no issue , if I have symptoms it is because of the meds my pdoc has me on ... well I have redused just for that reason to see the real me , as I am , or maybe was per , post med . ... while everything goes smoothly ... I feel fine , when the craddle fell monday , (not a real craddle .. no baby was hurt) my world suddenly fell too . ... it is me ... I can hold it together most of the time ... but it really is me ... I will never get used to admiting I have a mental illness ... but I do ...