Tomi, i'm really sorry you fell limited in your ability to express yourself here... but i think i get what you mean...

maybe time to let this one go then?

i've learned, i've grown, i'm very appreciative of this outcome... i enjoy the we've shared very much... it's good foundation and i intend to remember it and apply it... already, believe this or not, it has changed my real life relations... i'm happier, i see more connection in my local brother and sisterhood because of it... so yes, i have grown and, yes, i'm still growing...