I'm not sure it's mild since I basically cannot work, I get anxiety attacks just from reading emails at work and being around people and hearing any small noise is like someone is going to attack me. Now when I'm at home I feel either very down or incredibly numb wih racing thoughts and yeah, my thoughts are sometimes saying that I'm just making this up and I could just try harder. I have no energy though and can't do anything right.

So what you wrote makes me think that maybe it's my fault and I'm just not trying hard enough...

Sorry, it's not personal but I'm angry now and kind of hate myself.