Firstly Entity06...

I cant tell you how completely at peace your message and especially your words put my heart in. Thank you so much!

I spent 2 years, being there early hours taking her place while her son was very ill in hospital... I used to sneak in cooked food late at night cause she was hungry and well couldn't leave her son bedside, scared he would cry.

All along I fell in love with him and then her, cause she is truly a wonderful mom. But yes, her and her husband have 8yr marriage, and I never intended to complicate her life, but instead be a solid friend, but through struggles and being there day after day...even the sons b-day dad would not even show, I would setup a party and gifts and again always in the background...never could say it was from me, although her mother new.

I will do as you said, and I will keep on being myself, and hope I meet the right girl. I love to be a dad and even more a husband , and I know my true soul mate is near. thank you all of you , this has helped me so much.

In closing my biggest challenge is I don't want to believe that those years spent together, meant nothing to her...and she could just close that chapter after her words she is completely and totally in love with me is still fresh in a letter months ago before she went quiet and just cowered back to her hubby...well I thk.

Entity, as the saying goes it takes a wonderful person to know one, thank you truly.