Hi Corydora, you can look up the clinical diagnosis for ASPD but it really needs a trained professional to make a diagnosis. That being said your story is similar to mine. I don't feel remorse etc but I have pets that I care for (I don't think I can feel "love" in the way most people do). One good thing about it is I have never felt lonely, I don't need to be around people but I can appear to be very social and charming if I need to be. Don't be too worried about being different, it's people like us who make great generals or leaders, we take risks that normals won't. Embrace your life and run with it, enjoy being a wolf amongst a herd of sheep. It is up to you to set boundaries to your behaviour even if it is a selfish thing like don't kill people who piss you off if anyone is watching. I have had a great life, and done things most people will never do, so my favourite saying is "F*** the World" You are who you are, so don't sweat all these labels.