provacative... i like the way you apply historical meaning to your current endeavor... it may matter? it also contains (in my view, my personal caution to myself) the elements which make it ripe for delusions...

but i think if a way is found to turn those elements into a positive current, one may recieve enlightenments that those whom have never done so otherwise may not discover... i like the combined meanings of my name (obviously) or i wouldn't have posted this...

even my middle name has special meaning... i brought this topic up because i think for some of us there is empowering knowledge, simply in the name we have recieved or given to ourself...

it was by accident i discovered the history of 'Darel'... and perhaps, there is still more to discover... ?

thanks to All who've replied... please stop thinking when it hurts, at least for awhile, ok? then re-visit it when you're strength rebuilds... Peace