Me too. I am just going to have to change my attitude, shut my mouth, and either learn to stop freaking out with emotional hysteria or just leave the house when it happens.

My h is determined to stay with me no matter what. He says he really loves me. It's obvious that is love, to be so devoted to never throwing in the towel.

Now that two doctors have diagnosed me with borderline traits, I am thinking that my thinking must be wrong.

Here's my 'faulty' thinking on this: my h is only willing and capable of loving me and giving me the things/ways he is willing and able to do. No matter how I have told him I want/need physical, sexual attention in a consistent way, and no matter how he has seen his neglect has destroyed me, driven me to SH and hysteria, he still does nothing to meet my needs. Therefore, he doesn't really love me.

But I just have to let that go.