Normally I write a lot. It's my way of expressing myself and trying to un tangle the thoughts whizzing around. I find it a lot of help just to get the feelings out.

But I cannot write now. The words are gone. I cannot connect with the paper and pen. I am just sitting alone in a quiet dark room. I try and work things out, but it all seems to come to a dead end. My mind just shuts off.

It's scaring me.