i just wonder about feeling attached to your T . i dont seem to feel all that attached at all. im not saying i dont think about her or want to talk to her but i just dont feel all that attached at all. i wonder if i did would it be easier to talk to her about the mother and the abuse . i read so much about how people want to be friends with the T and to want the therapist to think about them out of session and things like that.wanting to be there fav client etc... i dont feel any of that stuff at all .i dont know if it because my T is great at boundaries and not fostering any kind of attachment ,or is it me being resistant. i see people here who share everything with the T , they are always thinking about the sessions .i mean sometimes i feel like my T hates me and i get upset but for the most part i try to not create a situation that she hates me . sometimes i fail . i just wonder if attachment would help or hurt . i have been seeing her for about 5 years and have only talked a small hand full of times about the abuse in very general terms .last session we talked about how she had said that maybe it was a goo idea to not talk about it and so on . she said i must have misunderstood her .she felt it would do me good to be able to talk about it but to do it very slowly so i was not retraumatized . but she doesnt understand that i just have no idea how to do this . how to talk about the abuse .maby me not be so attached and trusting of her is the problem but look at how many people get hurt being attached to the T . i dont know .i just know i want to talk to her about my history but ont know how .
rant over