Option 2 really isn't that unrealistic considering I know ways to make the kind of money it would require to be able to start something like that. The ways of me making that kind of money would be doing some rather dishonorable things but I honestly don't care anymore. I truly don't care about most people and I'm fully capable of hurting others to get ahead in life if I need to because let's face it, why should I care? People never cared about me or helped me enough when I needed somebody the most. No human being can possibly heal the emptiness and pain inside of me so if I have to use others instead to ease my own pain, so be it.

Even if I do take a more honest route to obtaining wealth, it still doesn't change the fact that I'm broke now and am still struggling and one needs money to see a therapist or make lifestyle changes that would help and lets face it, I don't have the fortitude in my current mental state to do things the long, slow, hard way. I also don't have the motivation to read self help books right now because I struggle just to even get my basic needs met so it would be too hard and overwhelming to do all of the self improvement things on my own right now.

Not to mention, I have a number of really cool ideas involving designing my own online games, making a virtual world with the emergence of VR, or even ideas on how to make better computers and devices either for gaming or business, but I can't ever do anything that I want because I'm always broke and struggling to obtain and hold a decent paying job.

So I guess what I'm asking for is somebody to prove me wrong. Maybe try to convince me that I will have other options that are more viable or appeal to my desire for a good reward to be worth the amount of risk or work that I put into a task?

I honestly don't know.