Hi Amanda

Depression can absolutely cut you off from people
And they can say/be anything you might otherwise want them to say/be, but it can all still feel real meaningless, right?
I know you say you don't need depression to feel that way...........but could there be a chance that even though it's felt like the depression isn't there at periods it may still have been............slightly underlying how you see/feel the world??
Sometimes it can lie just under the surface...........and you can sometimes still be outgoing and depressed as well deep down..........
Maybe, maybe not...........but...........
Could you imagine some of the aspects of what a real connection might feel/be like for you...........different sorts of connection have meaning for different people..........
Maybe you feel that a connection could lie in someone truely understanding/knowing what you're feeling and some of the things you're going through/been through..........maybe it would be about someone sharing the same interests...........maybe it could be about getting to the point with someone where you could tell them anything and not feel judged..........maybe it could be about having someone to share the same life path with...........or even a mix of these/any things..........
I'm just thinking if you could identify what might be real important to you it might give you some clues about where/how might give you more chances of building a connections..........help you feel less alone.......
It might be you decide on joining a support group for feeling connectedness, or a leisure club, or decide starting real slowly with some/anyone could help and see if time together can help, or even starting reaching out more online if nothing else..........
And if there's any thing/s which have happened in your life or with people who have been around you which have impacted on you finding it hard to make connections........perhaps you could get some support with that..........
But if depression is a part of it, maybe you could reach out for support with that primarily........because that can definately make things real hard too............

Just some thoughts...........



Alison