I think you already know that you aren't getting the therapy you need. I can understand how you might feel guilty to switch therapists, but you need to think about yourself first and your own future. She is the professional and if she gets her feelings hurt it's because she is acting inappropriately and is not keeping appropriate boundaries with you. You didn't do anything wrong. Even though the T/client relationship feels equal sometimes, it really isn't always. Many times, the T is in the more powerful/influential position. It seems like she has suggested/led you to this more intimate relationship, and she should have known better. I hope that you find a T that can really help you.