Hi,
I read your post. You have been through a lot. hope you continue posting here. Please, I apologize for being sharp in advance but I think you cannot live with your father. I don't think he is a bad person but he is a facilitator. I would tell you more stuff but I will stop right now because I do not know about your readiness to hear other people's comments. Sometimes I hate when people tell me stuff I don't want to hear. So, again, I hope you continue posting here to keep the conversation going. I wish you the best