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Originally Posted by dd665
Here's the thing: I felt empowered screaming abuse, but I have to admit it doesn't last very long. When things like this happen to me (and I have a huge archive in my mind that I scan through all day, reminding me how pathetic I am) I usually submit and imagine that I am always wrong and they must be right. Then I beat myself up about it for anything from days to years later for not 'biting back'.
On this occasion I bit back and got a kick out of it. It was a release and a 'revenge' of sorts. I play it over and over in my mind and hope that this woman felt terrible and would think twice about doing it to someone ever again. I picture her crying when she gets home and telling her partner about it. I could be wrong. What if she's a happy, well adjusted individual that has given no more thought about it, and in the meantime there's me with it destroying my very soul.
So all in all, the revenge thing hasn't worked for me. I have no proof that it even affected her in any way and I am not 'enjoying' the aftermath of what I did.
But if I can bat this back to yourself, Jennifer, my feeling is that I was singled out for this treatment. Would this woman have approached anyone like this or do I just give off vibes that I am an easy target ? In my car she couldn't see as to whether I would be physically threatening to her. She couldn't tell if I had a knife or baseball bat or anything.
So how did she know she could pick on me ?
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I'll be honest with you. I think that lady acted like a horse's ***. Since she couldn't really tell who was in the car I really don't think she approached you as if she knew you were someone she could pick on. She just acted out on whoever was driving. She's not really intelligent is she? I mean who does that nowadays? There's no telling who has a gun, a bat or pepper spray.