I feel really stupid. And weak. And broken.
I just watched a sad movie on tv (ordinary people) and it made me cry.
Earlier today I almost burst into tears at the bank as a teller was trying to help me figure out how to deposit my rent into my landlords new acct. I feel like I can't do anything right.

My coworker texted me to see if i was gonna be out again and if I needed her to do anything, and To say that she missed me. Which is nice to hear. That somebody actually noticed I wasn't there.

I haven't seen or talked to my best friend in weeks. I texted and called her a few times to see if she wanted to do something but she is always busy with work, so i have sort of given up. She has no idea how ****eed up I have been.
I wanted to go to a support group meeting tonite but I didn't wake up from a nap in time which sucks bc I think i needed it today.

My parents are coming up to stay with me in 2 weeks so somehow I have to find the energy and motivation to actually clean and organize this disaster. Seems like it would be easier to just move. I just feel so alone and pathetic. And i feel physically like my body is slowly self destructing itself or something.
I'm just so tired of all of it already.