I'm going through lots of stuff....I can't even begin. It will get better in time, perhaps so much better I'm in tears just thinking about it, but I'm so angry, betrayed and hurt....physical and mental torment of the abuse I've been subjected to is flooding and ungulfing me in such a mix of emotions I cannot say. My son went to school today, this is huge. Bittersweet seems to be an ongoing theme for my life.