Hey everyone!
Look who showed up... remember me from yesterday? I just want to let you all know that finding this website has helped me soooooo much! It's given me so much hope that I can pick myself up out of this hell I've been in and get myself back on the right track. Today was a very productive day for me. I put together my "to do" list as I usually do and then I proceeded calmly, doing one thing at a time, applying the concepts of balance and acceptance as I went from thing to the next.

DePressMe, your post on step one caught my interest because I'm just getting started on the step work again. I've only answered a few questions, but the one thing that you made me think about was the question, "what does the disease of addiction mean to me". I remember when I first entered recovery 5 years ago, thinking that marijuana was my problem and I just had to learn how to quit using it. Now I know that it's not the substance that's the problem. It's my thinking - the obsessing about using and the compulsion to keep on using, even when I don't want to. I learned that I had a disease, not a drug problem. The drugs were the substance I chose to use at the time to deal with the unmanagability the disease was causing me.

Ya'll have a nice evening and I'll see you around the boards and hopefully in chat Tue. night.

C.