I think I need my T's sympathy too much. Sometimes I think about situations and how she would respond if they would happen to me. Like if I was in a car accident (whether accident or intentional). I'm not sure why this is even comforting to me to imagine her sympathy. I'm not sure why I want it so much. I truely feel bad for being like this. I also feel like I don't know how to get her to care about me otherwise. Crazy.