The last two therapists I had, I was nervous but excited about seeing them. I liked them, found them intelligent and seemingly competent and also relateable. I had to stop one because of cost and may go back once I quit smoking and can afford the extra couple hundred a month. The other I only saw once per month with a telephone call in between and unfortunately, due to some abuses I received at the hospital she works at, my confidence and trust in the process was shattered and I think she removed herself as my therapist after a benign comment I made....but I don't think I would have went back to her anyways...not sure though. I'm very ready to do the work and make some progress so I have gotten excited about going, but I've also had times where it was much worse than any dentist appointment I've gone to and was more traumatizing than therapudic. I HATE group therapy with a passion and will not share intimate details of my life with stranger who aren't bound to confidentiality....so anytime I've been sent to group, it's just torture.

I hope you find a way to be more comfortable or find the right person who you naturally are more comfortable with. I hope I find my perfect therapist too.