I did self harm today which made me realize I need to find somewhere else to live cause my mom is really stressed out taking care of me. Problem is she thinks she can handle it and doesn't want me to leave.but she gets really upset and stressed when ever I hurt myself.not to much long from now If I move as well my brother and I will be the last two kids to leave the house and my parents will probably divorce.i worry my mom will be lonely without any of her kids around.i also don't know anything about living alone and not sure how it would work cause my mom is my payee and I kind of would like it to stay that way rather that get a new one.i do the know how I'd get around either.i don't want to pay ten dollars daily to catch the disability bus how much does uber cost or what is the best and easiest way to get around were there aren't subway stations.
I'm a bit nervous moving out cause I am comfortable were i am but I know stress kills and I can not continue being a burden.