ok here we are.....I was very threatened at age 5...I thought my parents were breaking up...that fear is still with me...I shut up so my mother would not leave me....this just was what happened...I didn't choose this...any of it...I was a little kid...I was a good little kid...
now this is still there...I don't think it goes away...you just have to work with it...ptsd???

I need a psychologist....drugs wont help this stuff....maybe I need both...IDK