I understand what you are saying regarding your career. I've only seldom loved elements of what I do and am always a bit jealous when people tell me they love what they do. I want to love what I do, but right now I don't. I'm trapped by a good salary but it's not enough. Life is too short and if you hate what you do--day after day--then you have to find a way out. I've got a few options but none have an easy path or guaranteed success. And what if I don't enjoy the new situation either. This ain't easy! Good luck.