Me, too, EV. I think it's probably a common thing for those of us who didn't get the love that we needed in childhood. I fantasize about being in the hospital & T visits me. It might sound sick, but I've even fantasized about dying, and that T would be sad about it. I think the root of it is just wanting to know that we matter to someone, and that someone would be there for us if we really needed it.

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