I feel this way too and I'm sure many others here do. Ever wished for a miracle, some sort of magic wand ? It feels that's the only way, doesn't it ?

What interested me was your signature. I have to admit that I don't even see the point of washing or shaving, changing my clothes or indeed doing anything at all, yet you are doing something extraordinary such as a sky dive to help people you don't even know.
I find that incredible and would say right now that 'you rule'.

I apologise if I repeat myself from other threads but whenever I research depression on the web, a common theme is the fact that nothing in this universe is constant. Things change and therefore your living situation will, and so will mine.
It's so difficult to see this right now but somehow I get to the end of the day and sleep again. Tomorrow might be the day it changes, eh ?