I hear ya. Emotional pain SUCKS. The worst it ever was for me was when I divorced my husband..30 years ago. Not sure if I ever got over it, even after he died. Then recently, I let my guard down after months of being pursued, fell BAD for a guy who is never going to be any good for me (62 going on 18!) . I had to walk away, but I hurt him and that seems to haunt me more than missing him. I know one thing, I forgot how crappy this feels.