art T,

is this wanting to flee the group ever gonna get better?
I don't want to go. Because I want to go back to individual sessions. I feel horrible afterwards, not just for a few hours but for days. All this stuff really throws me off balance.

I understand that there is important stuff coming to the surface. My not-so-nice-side getting into the open. Things like wanting to get out the chain saw... Yet: This group experience is totally de-stabilizing. Which I cannot cope with right now.

So I want to get out of this. But one question is still haunting me: How do I know what is mere resistance to the process, because I just don't like it and how do I know that this is just not doing any good or is even harmful? I know I tend to stay in unhealthy situations far too long. And I know I have strong tendencies to avoid whatever I deem to be dangerous. But how do I know which is which?

still hurt, angry, and confused,
c_r