I told my sister the same thing.and im suprised by her reaction she didnt look at me as bad. I think cause my uncle on my dads side did something to his daughter but theres a difference between being a pedophile and actively being. A pedophile. You have thoughts that ive always hid cause i know no one would understand besides my best friend and what she said is better to be a pedophile and live with that label than to actively live and go against that little voice in your head that tells you no when you see a child.it may seem like the wrost of days but remember to tell yourself this is just an impulse i am in control.