Trace, when I was experiencing PTSD so badly and experienced suicidal impulses? I did not think of leaving a note. It got really bad for me, almost did not make it through it, and I was so bad I never thought about leaving a note. That never meant I did not love or care about others at all. I was in so much pain all I wanted was that pain to end.

I don't see it as a selfish act, not when it's that bad. I can see now that it would have hurt others badly and I am so glad I did not give in and it sure was hard to fight it.

One thing that saved me was coming across someone who told me how it comes in waves and to pay attention because that extreme impulse comes on crests and then dissipates. So, because I did notice that, I was able to fight through it and I fought like that just about every day for almost a year. I was also lucky that I finally found a therapist that helped me do just that.