I used to have people I could trust. People I could talk to when I was having a particularly bad night.

Now there is no one.

And so I go through each day and night feeling completely alone. I don't know if it's paranoia or logical. But I don't trust. I can't trust. I know I can't get through this on my own.

I really wanted this year to be the one where everything goes great and I don't end up in crisis. I guess it's not to be.

I wish everything would just stop. Why can't it just stop?