I kind of know how that feels. When I was the most depressed I was without all the self hatred. Still people tried to comfort me and said I wasn't as bad of a person as I thought I was. It drove me nuts. Made me not want to talk about depression.

Also I have trouble learning some stuff, I learn pretty slowly and ask a lot. Different things I can learn really quickly. I just know myself well enough to know where I am not a fast learner. If I appear a slow learner people assume it is a self esteem issue.