This is the awful bind I find myself in constantly, Jennifer. I feel that I need 'proof' that I have screwed with someone's brain the way they have screwed with mine.
Although this is the fourth day after the incident and the feelings aren't as powerful and raw, it is still with me and will certainly be added to my archive of bad memories I will ponder over for the rest of my life. That stuff is just not fair.

If I can't take it out on her now, my concern is that I will take it out on the next person. If memory serves this has the label 'blueprinting' - the "the next time this happens I am going to......" attitude.

However I am intelligent enough to listen and I am trying to take in your words about '....more careful in the future before acting out."

Thank you.