I came home as a break. I am going back to where I was. I thought I would feel better home, but I was wrong. I already feel bad after just a short time of being here. I used to be independent, now I feel like a child again. Renting a place would be perfect for me, but this is against the tradition here. Besides it won't be long. I wasn't sure if I was going back, I thought if things were good and I felt better I was open to the possibility of staying, but now I am so sure, and this time I will leave and won't return. I prefer to be alone and lonely and to be in control of my life than to be with people and lonely and not respected and have no control over my life and decisions. My parents succeeded in guilt tripping me back, but never again. It is better for me and for them to stay away from each others. Now I have to start over abroad, which is so overwhelming for me. It was a mistake coming back and I regret it.