I'm so sorry you have gone through this. Our society tends to blame the victim and it really sucks. Being told "your should have" or "you shouldn't have" done something is ********. It sucks that when someone is sexually assaulted, the first thing they ask themselves, are "Did I ask for it" or "What did I do wrong", when the first thing that should have been said is, "You didn't ask for it" and "You didn't do anything wrong".

I've experienced assaults myself and have never reported any of them. Yes, I do feel guilt about them, more for some than others based on the circumstances of each. It's a combination of those assaults and growing up in a war zone that have graced me with CPTSD, Anxiety and depression.

I'm glad that you are in counseling and getting some help to move beyond this. Thank you for voicing your support -- and support back to you.