Hi all I come and read your posts everyday I hope you are doing okay today, two weeks ago yesterday I lost my husband to metastatic bladder cancer, I have been his primary caregiver for 3 years, it wasn't all bad in those 3 years, but in the last two it was in and out of the hospital a lot, I loved him a lot. The day of the funeral I called my pdoc and she told me that this type of loss is different than the mood swings of bipolar 1 that I have, I was wondering if any of you have had a loss like this and how did you cope? I am still taking my meds and trying to move on. The evenings is the hardest time for me, the other thing is after the funeral, I have not heard from his family at all, his sister is a narcissist and his older brother is nice enough but I feel like I am the third wheel of the family. I married my husband 7 years ago after he had a terrible marriage and his family was so happy for us when we got married, he no contact with his family because the ex wife didn't want contact with his family at all, now I understand why she didn't, my sister in law never texts me back or will call me to make plans when my husband was alive she only called him, she came to to our house one day and I remember her saying "it's all about me" my pdoc said don't worry about them, you are who you are and they are who they are and they will not change, I agree with that but it hurts still anybody have any insights? I am the one that took care of him everyday and I am The Who saw him go downhill for 3 years, I don't know I just don't trust his family and I am sure I will never hear from them again, I just don't understand, thanks Lela