Beta, that's actually very similar to what I've been working on in therapy. Both of my parents were emotionally neglectful, and so it seems I've developed a world view predicated on the idea that I was unlovable and unworthy for whatever reason. Add other childhood trauma into the mix, and I so often feel like a shell: empty and worthless.

So I'm learning right now how to fill that void myself. The present me mothering the inner child, so to speak. It's given me a way to give voice to the childhood fears and loneliness without validating what the child believes about feeling unlovable and unworthy. I hope that makes sense.

Granted, the analytic, intellectual part of me would much rather be trying CBT again because feelings suck, and the work has been hard, but for the first time I actually feel like I might be happy someday. I'm still early on in all of this, so I may feel differently 3 months down the line.