((((((Eddiesmom)))))) I am so sorry for your loss...such a huge loss. I'm sorry I have nothing helpful to say. While I'm fortunate that my husband is alive and well, I can relate to a death not bringing family close like we all imagine it would. My dad died last fall, and I thought my siblings would be there to grieve with, but they had their own agenda and I was left to grieve and cope on my own. And it was very lonely, as I'm sure you're feeling now. However, the loss of a spouse is much more painful than the loss of a senior parent, so I can't even imagine how difficult this is for you.

I'm certain there are others who have kind words and have been in your situation and out the other side. Many hugs.