I'm very sorry for your loss. I lost my husband suddenly two years ago to a drug overdose. I was devastated. But it was definitely different from my bipolar swings. I didn't fall into a deep depression. I was sad and cried daily, but it was grief, not depression. What I did was kept talking about my loss. I got into an IOP program and talked there, then when that was over I got a therapist who I am still with and talked to her. Lucky for me my husband's family was very supportive of me; my sister in law is actually my best friend now. My MIL lives in Tennessee so I don't talk to her very often. My FIL has schizoaffective disorder and is delusional almost 100% of the time (and was when my husband was alive as well) so I don't talk to him very often either. But my sister in law is the best and I love her.

If you don't have his family's support, just forget about them. You don't need negativity in your life right now. I dropped most of my husband's friends after I found out they were all drug addicts. I don't need those people in my life.

I'm doing well almost two years later. I had to hang on for our son. He deserved at least one functioning parent and I was determined to give him one, since I could no longer rely on my husband for help. The experience has made me stronger. I still wish things could have been different but I know in my heart that there was nothing I could have done to save him.

Just keep talking about it. Definitely find a therapist if you don't have one.