Just venting. I had a bad depression/mixed episode 5-6 years ago. Following which I sought help and was diagnosed BP2/GAD and placed on medication.

Ever since then, I've never gotten my life back. I don't experience joy or pleasure. All of my hobbies and things I enjoy went by the wayside. I find no joy in social situations. Always feel empty or on the outside looking in. Even when I am well. I might have one day once every blue moon that I feel anything. I used to do things with my son and felt close to him. No more. I am there for him, but not really THERE for him. I don't know if this is caused by medication or I'm just doomed to be like this now. I'm just stuck. I don't know what to do. Feels almost like a life not worth living.

Feel free to pipe in. Just needed to talk about it.