EV, It is normal and fine to want your T's sympathy! I have daydreamed thounsands of senrio's where this could happen. T said I may "use" her as I wish too and need too. I find as her constant presence and caring continue to work they way "into" me, the less I have to soothe myeslf with daydreams, and the more I can sit down sometimes and remember a look she may have given me or a word and that makes me feel full, loved. We're in therapy because we have lifes there weren't "good enougth" and now we're going through the stages again, but this time with a healthy result...its a good sign that you trust your T enought to even want to use her like this!