Just a quick update. Its been another 5 months since I last posted, 1 year 2 months since I finished with my Therapist. I think that I am in a permanent cycle of pain that will never leave me till the day I die. I still think of her every day, and it feels like its a nightmare that will not end soon enough. This was suppose to help me make better relationships with people, but in fact its shattered me so much that I dare to get close to anyone ever again.