Blue, you can't claim that no one would care. I would care. You're a valuable addition to this forum and have provided perspectives and support to me and others. I appreciate that.

I am sorry that you're depressed, and that your family is getting you down. I hope starting your new job will give you some relief. Why don't you consider moving out and getting your own place or finding some roommates? I know you're paying down student loans, and when I was doing that I had a house with roommates so the cost wasn't that bad. At least you would feel some independence.

As for what to say about the depression, my number one suggestion would be the same as yours. Call and talk to your psychiatrist. He's going to be the best equipped to handle the situation and work with your meds.

FYI, it could be the Ritalin. Stims seem to affect you more than the average bear, and that's the first thing I would look at if I were you. You can go a day or two without it to see, that's an easy trial and you can go on and off stims easily. I'm not trying to be your doctor, just giving something to think about.

Hang in there. Deep depression sucks, but be assured there is a corner you will turn, and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel for you. Stay strong. We care.