Because I might just get better. Because I might be able to get legal revenge on at least a few of the azzholes who hurt me. Because I can focus all the anger, pain, hurt into thoughts of revenge and stimulate my brain enough to carry me through this dark tunnel I'm in right now, come out the other side, able to see what the others see regarding their families and other normal things that make normal people happy. Because I might be strong soon and then watch out.